Mon, September 19th.
I woke up around 5:00 AM because I had to piss and then I just stayed awake. I worked out for the first time in a long time and now I'm listening to this absolute bop. I first heard this song while traveling around Japan (Not sure if I posted this song already, if I did apologies, it's just that good.
So ye, I'm in Denver and just relaxing at this point. I was able to get today off in exchange for working a wednesday. Who cares lol.
The deck for Jaan is basically done and now its time to polyurethane and ship out. I'll end up doing that once its a bit warmer outside.
The lover moves to Tokyo in a week and I'm heart broken. I want nothing more than to go at the same time as them but that's just not the way this worked out. Still waiting on my new certificate :(
I'm in a good mood I swear, just tired from working out and I want to veg for a while.
EDIT: Alright I'll write something better than this shit post lol.
When I turned 20, I started college. I took two years off after high school and dedicated my life to film. I wanted to be a screenwriter and I wanted to move to Los Angeles. My dad told me I should go to school first to practice my craft and learn more about scriptwriting. So I did. That absolutely ruined me lol. The thing with school is the creativity is kind of lost in the lesson plans. For some creators, being tied down to a grade or pushed to follow a normalcy is death. I graduated from film school, mostly with the help of my friends, and then the screenwriting just disappeared.
The moment I knew I was going to stop screenwriting was after my first feature length indie class. We had one assignment that went all semester; write a feature length indie film. I wrote it and it sucked. My teacher gave me bad marks and then I just fell apart. I took another class of his, writing the feature length Hollywood, and it was equally shit. That class and that teacher had destroyed my creativity and I vowed I would never pursue a true creative life under the guise of a grade or the affirmations of others. If I were to pursue something again, it would be for myself and that's it.
Kaba exists now and fuck everyone's opinion.
Oh shit maybe I am in a bad mood lol.
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