Sun, August 7th.
First heard Tears For Fears while watching Donnie Darko with my partner. This was way before we started dating however. We'd been long time hookup buddies since high school and I guess this was just one of those nights I remembered. I love them so much (I'm not talking about TFF).
It's my birthday month therefore I'm forcing myself the gift of motivation. I've realized that motivation isn't just dropped randomly at moments. It's created. Lately I've been following the motivation I create.. An example of this is when I was young I'd constantly tell my conscious "Okay let's go wash the dishes" (Or some shit) and then I'd think again... "Nah". Now when my brain tells myself to go do something, I force myself to do it the first time. Get out of bed. Got it. Clean that plate. Okay! Eat that baby duckling. Ughh... Sure.
This self motivation is going to help in the long run. I've been realizing the potential for Kaba more and more everyday. Maybe it's because I'm another month closer to moving to Tokyo and I'm realizing that there's so much I didn't do in the US that I wanted to.
So in spite of that negative thinking, here's a quick list of things I managed to do in the US.
1. Graduated Film School (My younger self wanted to do a McJob lifestyle and just save money. Thank god I didn't listen to young me. I listened to my dad instead.)
2. Explored job options (Whether working at the airport, a flower farm, delivering pizza, or doing petroleum work *oil field and feeding cable down hole* I've learned I am capable of many things.
3. Explored hobbies (Filmmaking, photography, graphic design, music... All these things I like to do I've explored and pushed to the point where I've gotten paid for doing them. The one I truly enjoyed the most was graphic design so I've stuck with it.)
4. Made honest friends (Graduating high school and going to film school, I've made some unique creative friends that I'll have for the rest of my life.) *I don't think people realize the importance of flocking with birds you want to share feathers with.
5. Started a business (This is the big one. By following my heart, I was able to start a brand I'd be happy with and it's pushed me to explore what life means in more ways than I'd have thought.) *Hold on I'm just going to expand on this...
I don't agree with a lot of the U.S politics... That's why I'm moving *partially. One thing I can get behind the U.S on though is the pursuit of freedom it allows. It's so easy to start a business and start making money, I can't even describe how simple it was. Set up and LLC and then basically you're gucci. Money isn't everything, I know this. Money allows certain freedoms however and when you're living in a society it's just something you have to figure out. Do you want to spend money or do you want to MAKE money? For the longest time I was under the impression it's just good enough make a paycheck and spend it. Sure I was smoking a lot of weed then, and of course I still am, but I really developed an identity with money since starting Kaba. Not the identity of Scrooge McDuck but like... This identity that if I save just X amount per month, I have freedom to travel or something.
Starting Kaba has proven difficult and it's certainly still difficult but I love this difficulty. It's literally like playing an RPG or something. I get to explore options to take with the business and meet new and exciting people.
Now, okay... So I'll be moving to Japan. What are my goals there? Well it's quite simple David. I want to thrive as an artist.
I've started trying to make connections with the art scene while here in the U.S (It's proving kind of difficult but I'm not giving up) and with these connections, I plan on taking them with me to Japan. People have ALWAYS said my art is cool and neat and fun. That's never been enough. The moment I started talking about moving to Japan, the moment my friend Atsuko visited my farm from Japan, I learned that my art is actually good. I'm such a slut for myself haha. It's not everyones cup of tea but it's GOOD ART lol. I love what I make. Otherwise I wouldn't make it. Anyway, after talking about Japan and exploring that world, I started getting told "This art will do really well in Japan" or "Japan will love this art!" and it was like a switch in my brain. OH! Maybe I should explore the world and bring my experiences with me! Maybe I should take my art out for a walk and see if anyone wants to pet it! Japan is the next stop so...
Last thing. Kaba has helped me in another way. It boosted my confidence in creating art. Before, and I know this, I was painting in my bedroom all alone, doing art shows every once in a while, afraid to speak up and say "THIS IS MINE, THIS ART IS ME". Now with Kaba, the community that's being built has lifted me up! Remember that art show I did three weeks ago? I rocked that shit!
Okay, enough slutty self boosting.
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