Thur, September 1st.
After listening to the other mix yesterday, my mornings are kind of on a LoFi House vibe kinda thing. I just got back from Denver, drove through the morning to get back home. I was listening to James Blake on the way back. It’s all such good music・
I think I have a problem with comparing myself to others. I was looking for something to listen to this morning so I could start this blog post and I started watching the Trash Taste podcast with Ludwig. I started picturing myself in the studio instead of Ludwig (We’re both Americans that’s why I imagined myself) and I got kind of sad. I questioned whether I could make the boys laugh like Lud can and tell stories like he can. Something just brought me down, that comparing and speculating if I’d be able to make others laugh and feel happy. I know in my day to day life, the people I know are happy around me and I make them laugh but there’s something strange about podcasts lol. The parasocial relationship is real and I think we all have Covid to thank for making it a bigger deal. So many months not being able to spend time with your friends, forced to listen to conversation that isn’t yours.
Regardless, I love Trash Taste and Ludwig. They’re doing really well and that should be clapped about. One only knows how hard it is to make it in the industry of being a content creator (not saying I’ve actually tried) lol.
I should have done homework last night but I spent my time looking at places to live with my partner. We found a few places we enjoy but nothing final yet. Now today I need to do HOMEWORK on top of MORE HOMEWORK. Ehhh… hope I’m okay! New semester and I already slipped.
Ten minutes before work starts, got to pee.
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